Friday, November 07, 2008

Tomorrow's the big day!!

Tomorrow I met with Coach Matt at The Fitness Pursuit. I really have mixed emotions about it right now. I'm so excited because my journey back to health is going to start and my life will never be the same again. I'm nervous as all get out because I have never done anything like this before. I'm insecure because of my weight. I just had a talk with my good friend, Commodore, about this and he made me feel better, but the negative thoughts are trying to permeate my thinking. Intellectually I know that I deserve this. Intellectually I know that the trainer will be happy that I am making a change and not think, "Oh my gosh, look at the fat lady." Intellectually I know that I can finish something that I start. Intellectually I know that I can do this, but the negative me is trying to tell me differently. I want that voice to stop. I don't want to hear it anymore. I'm telling you right now Mrs. Negative Melissa GO AWAY, LEAVE ME ALONE. YOU HAVE NO MORE CONTROL OVER ME. Tomorrow it's all about me and getting my life back and I cannot wait.

I am committing this all to the Lord and will be praying A LOT!! Please pray for me as I start this journey. Like I said I'm excited and nervous all rolled into one. I know that once I walk in that door tomorrow and get started I will feel a lot better. Thanks.

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Team Brazo said...

Have no self-doubts -- I always figure that I am whom I am. I'd love to be smarter, faster, etc -- but you know what, I'm smart enough, I'm fast enough and I just don't care what others think. At the same time -- I have goals for myself, not for others.

I figure it is about me -- nobody else.

Coach Matt will be impressed.

M said...

That's the great thing about coaches- they help knock down that self-doubt, keep you on track, hold you accountable, and never judge. They have a vested interest in your success.

And don't worryabout your weight. If we were all super svelete athletes we wouldn't need coaches. This is what they do. this is a huge and positive step, and I look forward to hearing how it all goes!