Thursday, January 24, 2008

I feel like I'm back in Junior High and 13 Thursday

Remember I told you I tried a class called Zumba. It is a latin dance/aerobics class and I loved it. I went with my girlfriend and we were in the back just having a good time. We signed up to take the remaining 6 classes. Well somebody told somebody that told someone else who told my friend's neighbor that we were too loud and obnoxious. Today was my class and I feel so dumb, but I had major anxiety going into there. I told my friend I would tone it down, but not change who I am, but I must say that my insecurities about my size are creeping back in to my mindset. I noticed that quite a few women that were there last week weren't here this week, so I assume it is because of me. I know it could be because we are having the coldest weather in a long time or maybe their sick, but I feel like it's because they don't want to come to a class that I am in. I hate that these insecurities are creeping back in my mindset and I really think it is because I am finally losing weight and it is the old me trying to get back in here. The thing that bugs me the most is that when someone talked to my friend's neighbor it was pure gossip because my friend's neighbor was not in my class. I pride myself on not gossiping and I just think it is so petty. Grow up.

Here are 13+ things that are keeping me going during this:

1. I deserve to be healthy and fit.
2. I deserve to go to an excersise class witha friend and have fun.
3. I'm proud of myself because I signed up for a Tri club and a group class. Not something I would have done.
4. I have a loving husband and family and very supportive friends.
5. I have two kids that are my life and are very proud of me.
6. I'm healthy enough to be working out and I thank God for that.
7. I have food on my table and a house over my head.
8. I will not let the gossip of others affect my new motivation for working out and getting healthy.
9. I have lost 12 pounds in 4 weeks.
10. I'm a very outgoing, fun, encouraging, person and that's what people like about me. I will not let this gossip take that away from me.
11. I am going to do 3 triathlons this summer.
12. I am already signed up for a 5k in March.
13. I am blessed beyond all measure.
14. I am significant because of who I am in Christ and not what people think of me.
15. I am victorious.
16. I am woman. Hear me roar. RRRRRRRRrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.

Thanks for listening. I feel so much better!! I'm off to be Mommy now.


Wylee said...

Rock on Melissa!

Anonymous said...

This is AWESOME!
Be who you are regardless of what others may think.

TriGirl said...

Melissa, You go girl! Who cares what others think but I am like that too, of my insecurites. But i have been put on a special diet from my doctor and I should lose 15lbs a month or more. I am not snacking anymore and I eat a lot less a day now.. I am ready for this triathlon this summer, bring it on! i just have to push myself on the bike this summer. And I will be running too.

Go Mom Go said...

You are doing awesome!

Ok about the movie. I think the website said it will be shown in Feb. I don't know the date. You can find the site by googling the name.

good luck!


IronTRISH said...

I hated Jr. High! And I still have those feelings of insecurity. Hang in there ... just keep moving and having fun!

Iron Benny said...

Mommy Meepa is
Becoming the person she
deserves to become

Listen to your heart
Family is your passion
Your smile is your asset

Poor excuse for poetry, I know. But you asked for it.

It's been a while since I've visited. I'm sorry. I promise I'll be around more. I'm so happy to see that you are doing so well.

Just because someone tells you that you were too loud doesn't mean that the other people didn't enjoy your spirit. If someone wants to be catty, that is their problem, not yours. If they want to make remarks that denegrate others, they have the problem, because it's obvious they need to say something to make them feel better about themselves. You shouldn't feel bad about yourself. You should feel bad for them, because they don't have the courage that you have to take a stand, say enough is enough, and make a change in yourself and the world.

Please, be yourself. In fact, if those ladies are there again, be sure they hear you. They need what you have. Your laughter is beauty, and you radiate it. Don't take that away from the world because someone wants to be catty. OK?

Mommymeepa said...

Thanks everyone. Wow, Benny, nice Haikus. It is so good to have you back. You have written what I needed to hear. Thanks.