Monday, May 17, 2010

A lot on my mind

Some of you have noticed I haven't blogged. You've asked if I'm ok and I am for the most part.

First of all, we have been busy because Parker was in another Musical. This time he was an Indian in Peter Pan.

But, besides that there has been a lot going on in my mind.

Things I need to sort out before I can blog.

Counseling has been hard lately. VERY HARD!!

There are things I need to do, but that are hard to do. I don't want to do.

I'm working on stuff little by little day by day.

I look in the mirror and I do not recognize who is looking back at me. Literally, I do not recognize me.

I look inward and ask who am I? I do not know right now. I am trying to figure it out.

I am very proud of my weight loss. I will continue to be proud. I am excited about the endless possibilities that are coming my way, but with as much as I am losing, I am also becoming a new person, and one that I am trying to figure out.

A lot of me is the same. I will always be the kind, caring, compassionate person that I have always been. I will always be fun, outgoing, and the person in the room that will say hi to everyone, but there are some things changing about me.

I am trying to figure it all out and I will keep you posted on it as I do. Just bear with me while I do because it might take some time.

And for those of you not sure about the new me, I'm not sure either. We'll get to know her together.


Anonymous said...

I'll love the old you, the new you, or a mixture of both. :)

Take as much time as you need to figure things out - we will all still be here for you.

Smiles :)

rebecca hallin said...

I know what you are going through! when I started ing etting in shape about 4 years ago little by little a new me came out on just phsically but a lot mentally some of it I was prepared for and some I was not. but in the long run it all was great and I am so glad that I made the decison back then to change my life and it is still a work in progress. you willbe just fine!