Friday, April 30, 2010

Could have, but didn't.


Yesterday I woke up with the worst migraine I have had in a long time. I mean it was so bad, I felt sick to my stomach and thought for sure I was going to puke. I couldn't believe how bad it was, so I took some medicine and went and laid down in the dark to try and alleviate the pain. I woke up a few hours later and still had a bad headache, but not a full fledged migraine.

I headed to the gym to get a swim in. I put my swim cap on, my goggles, and pushed off the wall. My head was pounding. My first flip turn I thought my head was going to explode, but then I got into a rhythm and had one of the best swims I have had in a long time. I swam 2100 yards total. I crushed it. When I got out of the pool my head was a lot better, go figure.

I then headed home to get Parker to take him to his theater class. I knew that I had a bike on my schedule and so I packed my bike into the car. I knew I could ride for about an hour, hour and a half. I was talking to a friend on the phone who was questioning my riding in the wind. We had about 30-35 mph winds yesterday. I told her that I was going to try, I would be careful, and what if it was windy on race day? I couldn't just not race because of winds, so I was ready. I was not going to let wind stop me.

What I didn't realize is that I was going to have bike problems. I spent most of Parker's class trying to get my bike to work, so I could ride. I had problem after problem. After calling my coach a few times and a friend of mine I realized it was not going to happen, so I packed my bike back up and sat in the car, frustrated, while waiting for Parker. Someone said to me maybe it was better that I didn't ride in the wind, but that didn't make me feel better. I wanted to ride in the wind. I was not going to let that be a reason I didn't ride. I was going to face that wind and work through it. Something I would have never done in the past, so I was ticked that I couldn't ride.

What happened next was amazing. I got Parker, dropped him off at home, called my coach and said, "I'm not letting some issues with my bike keep me from riding. I'm heading to the gym to get my hour in on a spinning bike. What workout do you want me to do?" Bob tweaked my outside ride so I could do it inside on a spin bike. I told the kids and hubby good night and went and biked at the gym. It was one of the best EVER spin workouts I have ever had. I'm kind of glad Bob isn't my spin instructor. I was there up until the last second I could be. I got in the car to drive home and couldn't stop smiling.

Here is how the whole day would have played out not that long ago.

Yesterday I woke up with the worst migraine I have had in a long time. I mean it was so bad, I felt sick to my stomach and thought for sure I was going to puke. I couldn't believe how bad it was, so I took some medicine and went and laid down in the dark to try and alleviate the pain. I woke up a few hours later and still had a bad headache, but not a full fledged migraine.

I decided to stay in bed, watch tv, and eat. I wanted to make sure that my migraine didn't come back. I know I was supposed to swim and bike today, but I had a migraine and I don't want to trigger anything so it comes back. Anyway, it's windy out today and the winds are supposed to get up to 30-35 mph. There is no way I'm going to ride in that, so I'll just have to tell my coach that I can't and he'll understand anyway, cause I woke up with a migraine. Oh, Look, Judge Judy is on. Alright.

This is exactly what I would have done not that long ago. I love the new me. I love all the changes. I cannot wait to see what I will become from all of this. Have a great day today and be great today.

2 comments:

Anonymous said...

Melissa, you are just amazing all that you have come through and how you are pushing yourself to be so much better in so many ways. Keep it up, you inspire many people. Keep reaching for your goal of the Ironman in 2012, it is yours for the taking. I have struggled with my weight due to medication side effects and know how hard it is to lose it once it is gained. You are doing wonderful, losing the amount of a 5th grade boy. Wow. Keep it up. I look forward to more posts and hearing about your continuing progress. You have come so very far.

rebecca hallin said...

I so enjoy reading your journey. I am struglling with 20 lbs I gained over the last 7-8 months. Like you I have been on a journey the last 3-4 years I was doing so great. a year ago at this time I was getting out of a 7 yr relationship, I lost my job and then moved to a new state and I am with a new man in my life. so lots going on with my life and I have way to many pitty parties lately. a year ago come May I also was training for my first marathon which I did complete last May. Now here I am wondering what I am doing to myself by falling back into old habits of eating bad food and not running like I used too. reading your blog inspires me to get back to the life I used to have and it is all about the journey! Keep up the great work I will be checking in and also updating my blog more on my progress.