Be back next year!!

Tracking Santa

I'm tracking Santa right now at www.noradsanta.org

Right now he is in Chicago Illinois. Ahhhhh. I must go outside and look for him. This is fun!!

Have a Merry Christmas Everyone. Enjoy time with your family and if the holidays are hard for you I will be praying for you as I understand. My mom died 12 years ago tomorrow morning at 7am. I know how hard the holidays can be for some. Hang in there.

Merry Christmas everyone and remember that the birth of Jesus is the reason for the season.

Never Enough Lights

To check out cool light displays and videos of people's Christmas lights set to music go to NEVER ENOUGH LIGHTS! Enjoy!!

Did I break a habit this month?

At the end of November my good blog friend GO MOM GO put a challenge up on her blog. She said starting December 1st she was going to try and break a habit. Hers was to work out everyday. She encouraged us to try and break a habit too. Experts say that it only takes 21 days to break a habit. Well, I took her challenge and decided that I was going to stop biting my nails. In recent months they have been chewed to little nubs and I decided it was time to stop. I used to suck my thumb and this January 1st is 5 years since stopping sucking my thumb, so I knew that I could stop biting my little nubby nails.

Yesterday was the 21st, so 21 days has passed and I am happy to say. . .

I HAVE STOPPED BITING MY NAILS!! WAHOOOOO!

Thanks GO MOM GO for putting this challenge out there. I am thankful you did.

Maybe now I can go after the Guiness World Record and beat this lady!!

Weight Watchers Update!!

I just got back from Weight Watchers and have great news. . .

I lost 2.2 pounds. Good-bye 290's, Hello 280's. It feels so good.

I now weigh 288.6

That means I've lost 17.6 since starting and 8.8 of it in the last 6 weeks with my personal trainer.

My next goal is to get to 276.2. That is 30 pounds lighter from my starting weight and that is my 10% goal at Weight Watchers. At that point I will have lost 10% of my Starting weight. I can do it. That is my next goal.

I'm so proud of myself.

Blind Ironman

Some Holiday Eating Tips

1. Avoid carrot sticks. Anyone who puts carrots on a holiday buffet table knows nothing of the Christmas spirit. In fact, if you see carrots, leave immediately. Go next door, where they're serving rum balls.

2. Drink as much eggnog as you can. And quickly. It's rare.. You cannot find it any other time of year but now. So drink up! Who cares that it has 10,000 calories in every sip? It's not as if you're going to turn into an eggnog-alcoholic or something. It's a treat. Enjoy it. Have one for me. Have two. It's later than you think. It's Christmas!

3. if something comes with gravy, use it. That's the whole point of gravy. Gravy does not stand alone. Pour it on. Make a volcano out of your mashed potatoes. Fill it with gravy. Eat the volcano. Repeat.

4. as for mashed potatoes, always ask if they're made with skim milk or whole milk. If it's skim, pass. Why bother? It's like buying a sports car with an automatic transmission.

5. Do not have a snack before going to a party in an effort to control your eating. The whole point of going to a Christmas party is to eat other people's food for free. Lots of it. Hello?

6. Under no circumstances should you exercise between now and New Year's. You can do that in January when you have nothing else to do. This is the time for long naps, which you'll need after circling the buffet table while carrying a 10-pound plate of food and that vat of eggnog.

7. If you come across something really good at a buffet table, like frosted Christmas cookies in the shape and size of Santa, position yourself near them and don't budge. Have as many as you can before becoming the center of attention. They're like a beautiful pair of shoes. If you leave them behind, you're never going to see them again.

8. Same for pies. Apple , Pumpkin , Mincemeat. Have a slice of each. Or if you don't like mincemeat, have two apples and one pumpkin. Always have three. When else do you get to have more than one dessert? Labor Day ?

9. Did someone mention fruitcake? Granted, it's loaded with the mandatory celebratory calories, but avoid it at all cost. I mean, have some standards.

10. One final tip: If you don't feel terrible when you leave the party or get up from the table, you haven't been paying attention. Re-read tips; start over, but hurry, January is just around the corner. Remember this motto to live by:

"Life should NOT be a journey to the grave with the intention of arriving safely in an attractive and well preserved body, but rather to skid in sideways, chocolate in one hand, body thoroughly used up, totally worn out and screaming "WOO HOO what a ride!"

Have a great Christmas Season and for those of you worried about me after reading this do not worry. I'm fine!! I just thought these were really funny. I do not need emails worrying about if I've fallen off the wagon. :-)

I CAN'T BELIEVE IT!!

I cannot believe that this is happening. I just found out this morning and you all know what a HUGE Disney fan I am. Sorry It can't be you too. You can come with me though.

Weight Watchers Update!!

I lost another pound today. Wahooo!!
I've lost 15 since starting, 6.8 of it in the last 5 weeks since starting with Matt. It feels so good to have lost 15 pounds. Yeah. I now weigh 290.8. I'm looking forward to next week because I want to be in the 280's and I know that I can do it. Go Me!!

No matter what journey you are on keep at it and it will come. I'm living proof of that.

Thanks everyone for your support, but the glory goes all to God.

Thank you Lord for helping me get to where I am today in my healthy lifestyle journey. Continue to help me go in the right direction and help me never forget that you are here with me and helping me each step of the way. Amen!!

My nephew Luke cracking himself up!!

I babysat Luke the other day and we got my laptop out and played with the photo booth. What you are about to see is a video of Luke cracking himself up. What you see is what he saw on the screen. Too funny and too cute. Gotta love kids. Enjoy!!

Frosty Gets Caught

Booker T. Washington Quote

I am reading two short readings by Booker T. Washington and W.E.B. Du Bois. Both of them were great men who did a lot to help the black race after the Civil War.

I found a great quote from the writing, Up From Slavery Chapter XIV THe Atlanta Exposition Address.

This is Booker T. Washington speaking,

"In my contact with people I find that, as a rule, it is only the little, narrow people who live for themselves, who never read good books, who do not travel, who never open up their souls in a way to permit them to come into contact with other souls-- with the great outside world. No man whose vision is bounded by colour can come into contact with what is highest and best in the world. I have found that the happiest people are those who do the most for others; the most miserable are those who do the least. I have also found that few things, if any, are capable of making one so blind and narrow as race prejudice."

Living Advent Calendar

December 8th- wrote my niece a card and sent her stickers for no reason at all.

December 9th-Thanked my daughter's friend's mom for giving Tricia a ride home yesterday in a blizzard. It took her FOREVER and she didn't even hesitate when I called and asked her. I'm very appreciative of all they do and am in the midst of planning a super thank you dinner for them.

December 10th- Got a cart ready to go for a lady that was coming in after me at the grocery store. Offered to carry another ladies groceries to her car. She declined, but appreciated the offer. Took cookies to my son's school for a teacher luncheon.

Only 15 days until Christmas. Let's take the materialism out of Christmas and put meaning back into it. Give of yourself today and make a little peace on earth.

Made It!

I made it to personal training yesterday.
I worked out.
I'm happy I went.
My left calf muscle was hurting a little before I went.
Now it is killing me.
I can barely walk, but I made it to personal training. :-)
I really am changing because in the past there is no way I would have gone and if I didn't have a trainer yesterday I would have stayed in bed, so I am really proud of myself because I've come a long way. Still have a ways to go, but I'm getting there.

I'll head to the gym today and just walk on the treadmill today if my calf will allow me.

My first workout today is getting outside to snow blow my driveway. It never fails that when Keith is gone on a business trip it snows.

Have a blessed Wednesday!!

Keepin' it real

I'm just keep it real here.

I do not want to go to personal training today.

I woke up with my back killing me and pain shooting down my right leg. Now that I've been up awhile I feel better.

Going to personal training entails going out in the snow and driving on the ice.

I'm going to go, but do not want to.

This is the kind of day that if I didn't have a personal trainer I would stay in bed all day and do nothing.

I guess it's these days that really will show me if I am dedicated or not.

I was so ready to pick up the phone and reschedule, but I didn't and I will leave early so I get there in plenty of time.

Sigh!!

Did I mention that I don't want to go to personal training today?

Living Advent Calendar

As I count down the days until Christmas I am trying to do something little for people everyday. I'm trying to go outside my comfort zone a little bit everyday. As I have mentioned before I am not doing this toot my own horn, but to encourage you to get out there and give of yourself a little everyday. It will make a difference.

December 4th- Volunteered at my son's school. I love encouraging those kids that always look like they are having a rough time. There is one little boy that lights up every time I volunteer. This is when I cannot wait to be a teacher. I love kids so much and cannot wait to make them smile everyday.

December 5th- Babysat my 2 year old nephew spur of the moment for my brother and sis-n-law, so they could go out and run a few errands without him. This was a little selfish on my part cause I haven't seen him for awhile and I love playing with him.

December 6th- smiled at everyone in Wal-mart and wished them a Merry Christmas. I stopped and helped a mom look for that one Star Wars figure that her son wanted. She found it. Went to the Star bucks I usually study at, went in, and paid for the next two cars in the drive-thru. Some of my regular employees were there and they asked me why I would do that and I told them I wanted to bless some people in this hurried time of year. They are all very young, so I hope it sticks with them and maybe they will reach out to someone. Stopped at an Alternative Behavorial Treatment Center in my hometown. I have driven by it for 5 years and always thought I should stop in. I found out they have 40 young men there ages 15-21. I'm not sure what I will be doing, but the Lord just had me stop, so we'll see.

December 7th- My husband won some Chicago Bears tickets for this Thursday night and we knew we did not want to sit in the cold watching them, so we were able to bless a family at church who has a Jr. High boy who LOVES the Bears. They were very grateful. I'm studying at Caribou Coffee and bought someone their coffee. They did not know it was me and I got to see their reaction. They said, "Wow, who hears of something like this these days?" His friend said, "Someone still has the Christmas spirit."

Only 18 days until Christmas. What can you do to touch someone's life? Smile, make eye contact, drive a little less crazy, give up that close parking spot, let someone go in front of you in line, hold a door open, buy a coffee, leave cookies on an elderly person's doorstep (just make sure they don't trip), etc. etc. Make a difference in the life of someone today. It will make your Christmas season so much brighter.

Mother Letter Project

I found this awesome blog called Mother Letter Project. This husband and wife and their extended family decided not to buy each other gifts this year for Christmas and instead will be giving the money they would have spent to a charity. They can make gifts, so he came up with the idea to have people write letters to a mother and he is compiling them into a book for his wife. Please visit his blog and write your own letter. If you submit a letter before Christmas he will send you a finished product via email. Writing this letter ended up being very therapeutic for me as I wrote my deceased mother. This Christmas morning at 7am she will have been gone for 12 years. I'm having a very hard time this year. I don't know why, but it feels like she just died last year. I figured out that there are things in this letter that have never been verbalized in the 12 years that she has been gone. Below is the letter. It's long, but if you feel so inclined please read and take a peek into my heart about my dear, sweet mother, my best friend.

December 2008
Dear Mother,

I’m really missing you this Christmas. Christmas morning celebrates twelve years since you died, passed away, were taken to be the Lord. However you want to say it, you are gone and I miss you. Sometimes it feels like it was just last year. You were only fifty-three when you died. 53. You were not very old. You were young. You were supposed to live a long time. You were supposed to die before me, but not before we shared a long life together. You were supposed to help me with my children, be their grandma, but you aren’t. You died. You left me. God decided that you had served your purpose here on earth and he was ready to call you home. I wasn’t ready to let you go.

You served Him most of your life. We still hear from people how you touched their lives. I know that there are people in Heaven because of you, but why did you have to leave us at 53? I love the Lord with all my heart, but sometimes I do not get Him. You could have done so much more for His kingdom. You could have touched so many more lives, but you were called home.

I remember as a child your sweet face, your embrace, your smell (Avon deodorant) your smile, and your willingness to help anyone. You always put others first no matter what and if there was a child around you would have been the first person to help them. You took a child that was not your own to church every Sunday for years. You didn’t have to do that. I’m sure that sometimes it was hard with your schedule, but that child’s relationship with the Lord was more important than anything you could have ever scheduled.

You bought us things for Christmas and made our birthdays unforgettable even when we lived almost in poverty. Mom, I never even knew when we were poor because I knew I had a home to come to and parents who loved me. I remember fun vacations in our trailer, your antique businesses, you being my AWANA leader at church, you singing to me, making up stories with me, loving me no matter what. When I told you I wanted to work with kids at church when I was older you encouraged me do it then. You believed in me and I have worked with kids, mom, 24 years now.

Speaking of that mom, I went back to college. You would be so proud of me. I’m graduating with my Elementary Education degree. I’m going to be a teacher mom, a teacher. I graduate in May and the hardest thing about that is you will not be sitting in the audience to see it, but don’t worry, Aunt Linda is coming and I am dedicating my diploma to you. I could have never done it without you mom. You were there with me.

I really miss you mom and you know what, even though I think that it is a shame you are not here to continue to touch peoples lives I figured out something. You are still touching people’s lives. You passed on your creativity to me. I love kids like you did. I am very giving like you were. I sing to my kids and make up stories. I have been their leader at church. I always look for ways to help others sometimes even above myself. You have passed all these wonderful traits on to me and I am passing them on to my kids, so mom, you are still touching many people’s lives. Thank you for all the wonderful things you taught me. I will always be grateful.

Mom, I don’t know if you know that I got pregnant a month after you died, pregnant with your granddaughter. We named her Patricia Eilene. Yup, she’s named after you mom. Even though you were called Patti, we decided to call her Tricia. You would love her. She’s 11 now. She looks just like me mom. She is very creative. She’s very artistic. She loves kids. She’s played the violin and now takes guitar lessons. She’s a tomboy and hates the color pink. She loves the outdoors and wants to be an architect when she grows up, for now anyway. She wants a real pygmy goat and a snowboard for Christmas. I’m scared she’s going to break a bone on her snowboard and we’ve said no to the pygmy goat even though she has done her research and emailed us, so who knows what she is going to get this year. Mom, I got to lead her to the Lord when she was just three years old. I’m sure you danced with the angels that day and had a huge party. She reminds me so much of you. It breaks my heart that you don’t get to know her. I can only imagine the AWESOME things you would do together and how much you would have taught her. I do not like being a mommy without having a mommy. Excuse the term, but it sucks.

On Tricia’s first birthday I knew I was pregnant again. I even told some of my friends at her party. We found we were having a baby boy, your grandson. Oh mom, you would adore him. He was the cutest baby. He laid in my womb funny and came out with a stiff neck. His head was bent to one side and he had to have physical therapy. We do not know if this is what caused his lazy eye or not. He has had glasses since he was two. He will have to wear them the rest of his life, but boy is he cute. He’s 9 now. He’s got the best sense of humor. He still hugs and kisses me in public, holds my hand in front of his friends, and kisses me all the time. He can sing like a lark. He is taking voice lessons and loves musical theater. He was just cast as a gosling in Charlotte’s Web. They did 11 shows and he was awesome and in the spring musical coming up at church he got a solo. He sang a solo last year at Christmas time at his voice teacher’s church. There was a full band and back up singers. He takes Kung Fu and only needs one more stripe to get his next belt. He just started playing clarinet in band at school. He’s getting really good. You can always here him singing or talking about his latest video game. He is so kind spirited, very sensitive, very creative, and is kind to everyone he meets and boy does he love to read. If you can’t find him he’s likely somewhere in the house with his nose stuck in the latest Manga magazine or a good book. Oh, and guess what? I led him to the Lord when he was just three also. I’m so happy you guys party up there when someone comes to the Lord. I just hope God let you know that the party was for your grandkids. I can just imagine you up there bragging to all your angel friends. You would love him so much. You would be so proud of him. I wish you could see him in his shows. It’s hard not having you in their lives. I can’t even begin to imagine what it would be like. They would be your buddies. You would want to hang with them all the time. I think I would have to fight for my mommy time, but you know what? I wouldn’t mind having you hear to fight with.

Mom, I’ve had some trouble in my life. Nothing major, but I’ve gained over 100 pounds since you died. I’ve been very disorganized in my home, and procrastinate all the time. I have hired a personal trainer to help me get healthy. I’m on my way to getting my house in order, and I’m finishing school which is a big hurdle in my procrastination battle. I’m not proud of these shortcomings, but I know that with the Lord’s help I will overcome them.

By the time I turn 40 I will have lost 130 pounds, competed in an Ironman, graduated from college, and just become a better person all around. I want you to know that I am doing this because you said something to me on your deathbed and it came back to me recently. You had become very thin because of your cancer. You had told me that you had told God that you would do whatever it took to get thin and that it wasn’t long after that you were diagnosed with cancer. You had me come close to you and you said, “Melissa, do not tell God you will do anything to get thin. I don’t want you to get cancer. Please get healthy now.” Well, I haven’t yet, but don’t you worry I am now. It’s been twelve years since you died and I haven’t done much to get healthy. I need to do it now and I need to keep the weight off. Then I will live the life that you had envisioned for me since you held me as a baby.

I may never understand why God took you away from me so early, but I do not want to have my kids go through the same thing. That is why I’m doing something now to better my life. Thank you for all your examples in my life. Thank you for all the traits that you have passed on to me. Thank you for loving me unconditionally no matter what I did as a kid or teen. Thank you for always being a hard worker and helping to provide for us kids. Thanks for standing by my dad through thick and thin. Thank you for loving my husband. Thank you for teaching me about the Lord. Thank you for the fun stories and songs. Thanks for letting me help when you taught preschool. Thank you for believing in me even when I didn’t believe in myself. Thanks for being my biggest cheerleader. Thanks for showing me what a mother should be. I pray that I will be half the mother you were to me. I love you so much.

Love your daughter,
Melissa Joy

Living Advent Calendar

Tuesday- December 2- smiled at and encouraged an older woman on a recumbent bike next to me at the gym. She seemed to appreciate it.

Wednesday-December 3- Took the time in the snow to talk to my neighbor to see how he is doing. He is having a hard time and it was good to catch up and see how he and his boys were doing. My toes were numb when I went back in.

Also, in the snow, took the time to see if a family needed my help who was having problems with a car door in the school parking lot. The dad didn't want my help, but I sat in my car awhile with my headlights on their door so they could see better.

I'm not reporting these to you to get a pat on the back just letting you know, so I can encourage you to reach out of your comfort zone, take a few extra minutes in your busy day, smile and make eye contact with a stranger. It will make your day go better.

Only 22 days till Christmas. What can you do to better the life of others this Christmas Season.

I celebrate Christmas to remember the birth of my Lord and Savior. While he walked on earth he showed compassion, love, and care for everyone and continues to do so. I hope that I can be Jesus to someone that needs it this Christmas season and beyond.

Giving something everyday-Living Advent Calendar

My friend Commodore had a great post about giving something of yourself everyday leading up to Christmas and I am going to start that today. It's like a living advent calendar.

Here are some ideas I have:

-bringing in my neighbors trashcans on a cold day
-when I study at Starbucks buy one person in the drive thru their coffee.
-Snow blow or shovel (depending on the amount of snow) the neighbors driveway before he gets up for work (single dad)
-Send some random notes snail mail to people and I'm not just talking about Christmas Cards
-Find some people that don't have anywhere to go for the holidays and invite them over for Christmas Eve
-Leave notes for my hubby and kids
-Like commodore said make eye contact with a stranger, shake a hand a little more firmly, or really tell someone that they did a good job, but tell them why.
-make an effort to meet someone new at church, maybe not sit in the same seat week after week.
-work at a food pantry
-Send 7 kids that I know in one family some little gifts to make their Christmas even brighter
-hold the door for someone while I'm out shopping
-Smile while working out at the gym
-Offer someone to go in front of me in line at a store.
-Let that car go in front of me even if it means losing the closer parking spot.
-finding a culture that is different than mine and learning one of their traditions
-encouraging others while I am working out.


These are just some ideas that popped in my head right away. If you do this please leave a comment and let me know what you did. I would love to know.

Weight Watchers Update

I forgot with everything going on with Zoe, Thanksgiving, and life I forgot to update my weight loss. I weighed in the Saturday after Thanksgiving and had a whole whopping .2 weight loss. Yeah me. The scale is still heading in the right direction.

WORDLE

Check out this fun website Wordle. You can put in any words you want and it makes a cool arrangement of them. You can put in your blog address and it will take what it thinks are the most important words and make a cool arrangement. Below are the ones that I made. Enjoy and go to this website and have fun.


This one I put my blog address in and it took words that it thought was important from my blog and made this cool arrangement. You can click on them to make them larger.

This one I made about my goals. I put goals on there and things that would help me reach my goals.

Turkey Trot for Zoe

The whole family ready to do our 1st Annual Turkey Trot.

The kids are ready to go.

I decided to do my 5k for Zoe. A beautiful little 8 month old girl who has Trisomy 18. On November 25th she had heart surgery. Things are starting to look up for her today. I don't ever want to take my health or the health of my family for granted again and so I did every step in her honor as she lays in a hospital fighting for her life.

Here is the picture I wore during my 5K. Zoe you are a superstar.

The kids and Daddy waiting at the starting line.

Parker and I ready to go.

Here is some encouragement we found along the way.



Tricia telling Zoe, YOU CAN DO IT!!!

Tricia and I approaching the finish line.


Almost there.


We did it!!

We found Parker at the finish line. He was looking for the doughnuts and hot chocolate. We found them.

Please remember Zoe in your prayers. Follow her journey at her Dad's blog www.batiansila.blogspot.com

HAPPY THANKSGIVING.

Pray for Zoe

Zoe has Trisomy 18 and is having surgery today on her heart. Please pray for her strength, the doctors, the nurses, and her family. We pray that all goes well and that Zoe will be out of the surgery room before we know it and that God's hand will be on her for a quick recovery. If you want to read Baby Zoe's blog you can do so at The Batiansila Family blog.

Here is a blog post that her dad wrote earlier this month:

November 25

Surgery has been set for Baby Z on November 25th. As mentioned before, we chose the shunt surgery and will be meeting with Zoe's doctor preoperatively on the 24th.

The days are flying by, everyone! The above is a post I didn't think I'd ever write. NOVEMBER 25TH. As in 8 months after she's born.

Pray for Zoe and the doctor and whatever this gift you and I have been given - to watch God fostering and securing a life beyond the experts' expectations.

IRON COWBOY!!

Iron Cowboy Rides Again at IRONMAN ARIZONA




My friend Michael Hennessey will be doing the unthinkable tomorrow. He will be completing his 15th Ironman this year, which will break the Guiness World Record of 14. He is doing it raise awareness for children diagnosed with Trisomy 13 and 18. You can read about his cause at Ironman for kids. Please pray for him tomorrow. Feel free to follow along on the Ironman Website. His bib number is 1234. Just go to the website and click on athlete tracker. Well, your at it please consider joining our cause for Trisomy babies and their heroic families.

Michael you will be in our prayers tomorrow and I will be glued to my computer screen. What you are doing is AWESOME and God is going to use it for great things.

I will be praying for all the athletes out there. Have fun. I wish I could be there with you all.

UPDATE SUNDAY 11/23/08
Michael finished the swim in 1 hour and 10 minutes and had a 6 minute transition and is now on the bike heading out to bike 112 miles. I'll keep you posted as I can. I'm off to church now.

UPDATE #2
Michael finished the bike in 5:57:59 that's 112 miles. His second transition was 3:33. Way to rock it Michael!!!

He is on the run course. Pray for his knee. And if you are out there look for the cowboy hat. YeeeeHaaaawwww!!

UPDATE #3
He did it. Michael is an Ironman again. He finished his 15th Ironman this year breaking the world record of 14 and is doing it all to raise awareness for kids born with Trisomy. Great job Michael. He did it 12:42:12. Congratulations.

Weight Watchers Update

Just got back from Weight Watchers. I lost 2.4 this past week.

Weight when I started with Matt: 297.4
Weight after two weeks with Matt: 292.4.
Total Weight loss since starting with Matt: 5 pounds

My official starting weight for my weight loss journey was 306.2, so I have lost 13.4 pounds total. Yeah Me!!!

Cartoons that made me smile.

I found these cartoons on an AWESOME new blog I read at Chasing Iron Enjoy!!

GET UP

Here is another SUPERCHIC[K] song that keeps me going during my workouts and such. It's called GET UP. I love it. Enjoy!!
So this one and the one I posted a couple days ago are my two favorite workout songs right now. Waaahooooo!!

Floor Exercises

For so many years I have told people I cannot do anything on the floor as far as working out goes because I have a bad back. I even told Matt that the first day we met. At our last meeting he said, "Ok, come over here on the floor." I almost said something, but I didn't. I made myself a deal that no matter what he asked me to do I would try it. So, I sat on the floor put my legs up and held my arms up. I was like a big V. I did it. He had me hold it for 10 seconds. Then we did some other stuff and came back and did it again. I surprised myself and even Matt said at one point, "I wasn't sure you'd be able to hold it that long." I was really proud of myself. It was hard, but I did it. :-)

Today I went to the gym and when I came downstairs from the locker room to head to the workout room I heard fun music, an enthusiastic teacher, and people having fun. I went into the basketball courts and there was the biggest aerobics class I had ever seen. It was fun. I usually don't join in classes, but I just felt like it today. After the aerobics part of the class was over she told us to get our mats and our weights for our floor work. I told the lady next to me I wasn't sure I could do it because of my back, but then I pictured the exercises I had done that I had never thought I'd be able to do, so I went and got a mat and was determined to try everything she asked me too. I did it and I can officially say I do not like the plank, but I did it anyway. My back is not even hurting tonight. My abs are, my obliques are, my legs are, my arms are, but not my back. Wow, I'm so excited. The only time my lower back hurt was when I was in the plank position for the 3rd and 4th time. I was not able to hold them then as long as she would like. I really liked the class and will be going back for more. I keep surprising myself everyday. After the class I went to the big boys side of the gym. You know where the free weights are. I have always been way too self conscience. I had fun. Hmmm, I had fun. Wow, there I go again surprising myself. I actually had fun working out.

About my post yesterday about freakin' out about changing thanks for the support. Keep it coming. There will be change, it will be good change, and I will embrace the change. I will BE ONE WITH THE CHANGE. I'm really excited about what's next.

I just hope I can move tomorrow to get out of bed, so I can get to the gym tomorrow for some cardio.

Some Thoughts Since Meeting with my Coach

Yesterday my coach and I were talking after we worked out. He let me know that I should be able to lose all the weight I want to lose by February of 2010. I'm very excited, but also I'm kind of freaking out. I guess I didn't think it would happen that soon. This is what I've always wanted. I still want it, but there are so many thoughts running through my head. Whether or not it is healthy I have been my current size for years and have gotten used to it. I have become pretty comfortable this way. I have become comfortable, but never happy. I am very happy these last few weeks. Hiring and meeting with Matt is the best thing that has happened to me in a long time. I think that I am scared of the unknown. Will I change when I become thinner? Will people treat me differently because I become thin? I don't want to change, but change is inevitable when you go from 300 pounds down to 175. I will change, but I like who I am now and don't want that to change. I don't want people to suddenly notice me and treat me differently because I am thinner. I have heard of that happening. I wonder why people have to be rude to people that are overweight. Why do girls in Jr. High and High School get made fun of and never asked out on dates just because they don't quite fit the world's mold? I was never that fat in High School, but all the kids thought I was. Kids were mean. I think that a lot of those feelings are surfacing while I think about all of this. I know that to get healthy and fit I am going to have to face some of this stuff that comes up. UGH!! Logically, I know that I will be fine, that I will be happy, that I will be free to do all the things that I haven't been able to do at this weight. I know all of these things intellectually, but still feel very freaked out. This is going to be a great journey and I look forward to working through all these feelings on the way to the finish line. After meeting with Matt I got in my car and cried trying to sort all of this out. I will do it and I'm very excited just pray for me. I appreciate it.

IT'S ON!!!

The other day I was listening to my IPOD at the gym, in pain (I don't think I've let you all know the pain I've been in) and a song came on by the Christian band Superchic[k]. It came on right as I was ready to give into the pain and stop working out. Listen to it here at this link: SUPERCHIC[K] IT's ON This is totally my song now for my journey. It's On baby!!!

Here are the lyrics too:

"It's On"

It all comes down to this
You take your best shot, might miss
You take it anyway
You're gonna make your move today
Got the will, you'll find the way
To change the world someday
Grab this moment before it's gone
Today's your day

It's on (and on) it's on (and on) it's on (and on) today's your day so come on, bring it on
(and on) it's on (and on) it's on (and on) today's your day so come on, bring it on

And the view will never change
Unless you decide to change it
Don't feel like it today
Just show up anyways
And though life will take you down
It only matters if you let it
Get up, go through, press on
Today's your day

It's on (and on) it's on (and on) it's on (and on) today's your day so come on, bring it on
(and on) it's on (and on) it's on (and on) today's your day so come on, bring it on

And though you wanna quit
Don't think you can get through it
You've come too far to walk away
It's not gonna be today
And no matter how you feel
It's what you do that matters
This is your moment to be strong
Today's your day

It's on (and on) it's on (and on) it's on (and on) today's your day so come on bring it on
(and on) it's on (and on) it's on (and on) today's your day so come on, bring it on

(no matter how you feel, it's what you do that matters it's your moment to be strong)

It's on (and on) it's on (and on) it's on (and on) today's your day so come on bring it on
(and on) it's on (and on) it's on (and on) today's your day so come on, bring it on

A New CYT Mom

Parker, as you all know, was cast as a gosling in Charlotte's Web. It was put on by Christian Youth Theater(CYT). Christian Youth Theater has chapters throughout the country and I would highly recommend it for kids. They put on very high quality performances. That is the comment I got over and over from the people that came to see Parker. They could not believe how professional it was. Check out their website at www.cytchicago.org

Friday night they had their last cast party and at it people could do skits from the show. They could do bloopers or a rewrite of a song or whatever they wanted. I wrote a song about all my experiences as a first time Mom. One of the kids videotaped it for me. Here it is and I have put the lyrics after the video because my throat was really hurting when I was singing and I skipped some lines. Enjoy!!!!



New CYT Mom (Sung to William Tell Overture played by The Home Rangers)
By Melissa Black

I’m a new CYT mom
I have written a little song
To tell you all my joy and woes
Of being part of this great show

Auditions were what came first
We were not sure how they worked
He had a minute to show his stuff
Man that’s really not enough.

We picked a song and made a dance
We really thought that he had a chance
Then we arrived and watched kids go
We looked around and said OH NO

The waiting game it was next
Did he get a part I could only guess
What is a mother to do?
I did not sleep the whole night through.

The next morning my computer went ding, ding, ding,
I found out Parker was cast as a gos-a-ling

My life changed that very day
Things got crazy is what I say
Parent meetings, things announced
Papers in my lap did bounce

Production fees, DVD’s
Do you want a bear? He’ll want one you’ll see!
Special meals, professional pics
Souvenirs, Well I’ll be dipped.

Can you sew, make some props, be in the green room?
Take pictures, usher , sell ads, or work a mic boom?
Make souvenirs, we need you to sell tix?
I picked the green room where with the kids I’ll get to mix.

You’ll have lots of rehearsals please be on time
Help your child learn every single line
If you can’t make it let us know
Cause on with the show we must go.


Saturday rehearsals were really were like going to school
Carol, Erin, and Charlie really taught us what to do
They probably wanted to run when all my questions had begun
But they were all wonderful each one deserves a hug.

Next up was a costume I needed it for Park
You don’t want me to sew or it will all fall apart.
The costume Moms said don’t worry we’ll take care of it for you
But he will need some white tights and some white shoes

Parker was not thrilled about the tights
He said Mom I’m a boy it is just not right
He twisted, pulled, and stretched them out
Get in the dressing room and don’t you pout

Jordan really saved the day
He taught him how to put them on right away
Jordan, Jerome, Coop, Devin and Zack
Probably thought this new Mom was all whack.

you were all so sweet
Knowing you boys was such a treat
Thanks for helping my son
And for calming down his crazy mom

you want me to moisturize my son?
I might do it all wrong.
Can I watch you put his make up on?
Can I take a picture when you’re done?

Next it was opening night.
Parker was fine, but I had such a fright.
Would they Velcro his butt? Would he remember his cue?
I let out a sigh when they were through.

Now I’m in the green room
I hope that I remember what to do.
Eat over here and play over there
And remember to cover up when you eat and drink 7-up
Oh wait a minute there’s no soda allowed in here
I messed up oh dear, oh dear

Is there an Ice pack for that bump? Of Course
We’ve got a bloody nose, somebody spilled soup in my purse.
Play apples to apples and write each other notes
Hey, Mrs. Tait, where’s that girl’s coat?
If we do not know, then we will go
Search this school from bottom to the top
Cause we are green room moms and we don’t stop.

Eleven shows done we’ve got no more
My life is going to be such a bore
What to do what to do?

I’ll just have to sign up for the next show
A new CYT mom I’ll be no more, no more, no more, no more, no more, no more, no more, no more, no more.

I’m glad Parker picked CYT
It’s been such a blessing to me, to me, me, me, me, me, me, and him and him.

Great Results, but painful

I went to weight watchers this morning and then to the gym. I lost 2.6 pounds this week. I feel great and was so excited at the loss. I also went to the gym. My coach wanted me to do cardio and weights. I did both. I hurt so bad. When I was doing the weights I was in so much pain from Thursday still, but I perservered and finished and when I was doing my reps and wanted to quit I pictured Matt there saying, "Give me a few more" and I did. Man, he's even telling me what to do when he's not with me. LOL It was a great workout, but I'm wondering will the pain ever end? And for those of you who are going to tell me that it's good pain. SHUT UP!!!! ;-)

2nd meeting with coach

OH MY GOSH!!!! I am so sore, but it's a good sore, but still sore. I really like Matt. He is really going to be good for me and really whip me into shape. I didn't feel so down after today and I was actually surprised at what I could do. :-) One thing for sure that will take some getting used to is when I feel like I'm going to die and can't do anymore he says, "Give me 5 more." The amazing thing is I do it.

I will be using the TRX Suspension Training System for my weight training. It is the coolest thing I have ever done and I felt like I got more of a workout than ever before in a shorter time. You use your own body weight to train. I did squats where you lean back using all your weight and squat, I leaned all the way back and had to pull myself up, and did something where I worked my triceps, and forearms, and also did push ups. I love it.

If any of you have used this let me know what you think. I love it. I hated it while I was doing, but loved it at the same time. Does that make sense?

I was trying to put a video on here so you could see what I am talking about, but for some reason I am not able to. Here is the link to a video on www.youtube.com to view what I am talking about. Let me know what you think. If this link does not work just put TRX suspension training in the YOU TUBE search and a number of videos will come up.


www.youtube.com/watch?v=O6A0EJViJ-g

Write more later.

The Old Me vs. The New Me

This is the first Wednesday that my son, Parker, has had to catch the early bus to go to band. We have to walk 6 houses down to the bus stop. I put on my tennis shoes, warm jacket, (It's freezing here) and headed down to the bus stop. The bus came and got him and I started walking home and here is the conversation I had with myself.

New Me: I should really go for a walk since I'm out here anyway.

Old Me: Naaaw, it's too cold out here and you haven't even eaten breakfast.

New Me: Good point, but I already have my sweats, sweatshirt, shoes, and jacket on.

Old Me: Yeah, but you could be in the house warming up. You know you haven't been feeling well. See you just sniffed and coughed.

New Me: I know, but I meet with my coach tomorrow and I already have to tell him I didn't work out on Tuesday, so I really should just go for a walk.

Old Me: I didn't tell you not to work out today, just not to go for a walk right now. It's only 7:30am. You have all day to work out.

New Me: Would you shut up already. I'm going for a walk. I'm getting my hat, a water bottle, and my IPOD.

Old Me: Oh so, you're going in the house to get that stuff I can still talk you out of that walk.

New Me: I am going for this walk and I will walk for an hour or 2 miles whatever comes first. Here I go!!!

Old Me: Nooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!!

I did it. It was super cold out, but I walked an hour and in that hour I walked a little over 2 miles. I was very proud of myself.
GO ME!! I meet with my coach again tomorrow. YEAH ME!!!!

Meeting with my coach

Some of you have been asking how my meeting went with my coach yesterday. It was hard. I really like him and will have HUGE success, but I left there feeling sad, frustrated, overwhelmed, but mostly hopeful. I was sad because of some things that were brought up that I hadn't thought about in awhile. I was frustrated by what I have become, how I have stayed like this for so long, and how I have had excuses for years and not even realized it until I was challenged. I was overwhelmed because a lot was thrown my way and I was trying to remember it all and still am, but most importantly like I said I felt hope. Hope for my future like I never had before. Hope that I will be able to drop the weight and reach all my physical goals. Hope that I can stick to something I start and see amazing results. Hope that I can learn what I need to learn to teach my children. Matt was tough, but I need it and I look forward to our meeting on Thursday. Matt, if you are reading this, thanks for a great start.

Thoughts before heading to my new Coach.

I've been thinking a lot about my life the last couple of days. How did I get where I am today? Why have I allowed myself to accept this as ok? What am I willing to do to get healthy? What am I going to do to make sure I never get back to where I am today? Getting a coach is the first step in the right direction. I am scared, but know that I cannot lose the weight I want to lose without help. I've been trying to long on my own, so here I go. My journey starts tomorrow.

Here are some commitments I made to myself today for the next year.

-continue with no soda.
-No fastfood. If I have to go out get a salad or a grilled chicken breast and use my own salad dressing.
-do what my coach says no matter what. Follow through on this commitment.
-No sweets for now except for gum.
-No more skipping weight watchers
-Do not eat while watching TV
-Watch less TV.
-Do not eat standing up.
-No chips.

This is what I came up for now.

Here are my long term physical goals:

-Weigh between 155-175 pounds
-Run a 5k
-Run a 10 k
-Run a 1/2 Marathon
-Run a Marathon
-Do an olympic Distance Tri
-Do a 1/2 Ironman
-Do an Ironman (Whoda thunk?)
-Be able to bike 50 miles comfortably at the Apple Cider Century (ACC)
-Be able to bike 75 miles comfortably at the Apple Cider Century.
-Be able to bike 100 miles comfortably at the Apple Cider Century.

These are my long time goals for now.

Tentative schedule for the next 5 years:

2009: 2 Sprint Tris, 1 Olympic Distance, FALL: Volunteer @ IMWI, 50 miles @ ACC
2010: 1 Sprint,1 Olympic Tri, 1/2 Marathon. FALL: Volunteer@ IMWI, 75 miles @ ACC.
2011: Jan. 1/2 Marathon at Walt Disney World, 1 Sprint or Olympic Tri, 1/2 Ironman Distance FALL: Volunteer @ IMWI,75 miles @ ACC
2012: Jan. Marathon @ WDW, 1 Sprint or Olympic Tri, 1/2 Ironman (Michigan or Racine), FALL: Volunteer@ IMWI, 100 miles @ACC, Chicago Marathon
2013: Jan. Marathon @ WDW, IRONMAN WISCONSIN, I cannot wait to hear MELISSA, YOU ARE AN IRONMAN.

October 13, 2013 I will be turning 40.

Tomorrow's the big day!!

Tomorrow I met with Coach Matt at The Fitness Pursuit. I really have mixed emotions about it right now. I'm so excited because my journey back to health is going to start and my life will never be the same again. I'm nervous as all get out because I have never done anything like this before. I'm insecure because of my weight. I just had a talk with my good friend, Commodore, about this and he made me feel better, but the negative thoughts are trying to permeate my thinking. Intellectually I know that I deserve this. Intellectually I know that the trainer will be happy that I am making a change and not think, "Oh my gosh, look at the fat lady." Intellectually I know that I can finish something that I start. Intellectually I know that I can do this, but the negative me is trying to tell me differently. I want that voice to stop. I don't want to hear it anymore. I'm telling you right now Mrs. Negative Melissa GO AWAY, LEAVE ME ALONE. YOU HAVE NO MORE CONTROL OVER ME. Tomorrow it's all about me and getting my life back and I cannot wait.

I am committing this all to the Lord and will be praying A LOT!! Please pray for me as I start this journey. Like I said I'm excited and nervous all rolled into one. I know that once I walk in that door tomorrow and get started I will feel a lot better. Thanks.



If you would like to check out The Fitness Pursuit please check out their website at www.thefitnesspursuit.com

IN MOURNING

I will be temporarily away from my blog as I am in mourning over who won the presidential election. Do not worry I will be ok. I just need some time. Sniff, Sniff, Sniff. I'm sorry I need to go.

Vote

WHY ARE YOU READING BLOGS? GET OUT THERE AND VOTE ALREADY!!!!!!!!

Indiana Jones meets Sushi Boy

Indiana Jones meets Sushi Boy. Watch out Indy, Sushi Boy has chopsticks and he knows how to use them.

This is my friend Darlene with a bunch of cereal boxes on here. She was a ceral killer. HAHAHA.

Me and Dar. I was having a little trouble with my nose.

Indiana Jones.

Sushi Boy.

Me and Cindy. What's up with those teeth?

Sushi Boy dropped something and had a little trouble picking it up. Did I help him? No, I had to get a picture for my blog of course.

Sushi Boy and the headless horseman aka Jack.

Parker ran into some people that were more than happy to eat him. RUN SUSHI BOY RUN!!

Hope you all had a fun and safe Halloween. As you can tell we had a blast. Write more soon.